my dearest friend, how I've missed you.
how i need you and forgotten you.
I have so much to tell you.
so much emotion and fear that i want to write to you,
but when i throw it at you,it doesn't stick.
I need you, to get my thoughts in order.
I need you to understand where i'm going with my life.
I write to you, and when you summarize it,
my life makes sense.
What happened to us?
We used to talk weekly, sometimes more.
but when my fingers touch a keyboard,
or my pen goes to paper,
all of a sudden my thoughts are like braille,
and i'm hopelessly trapped.